Hey Reader,

For the last several months, I’ve been devoted to growing my audience.
And there’s been this persistent, gnawing knowing in my gut:
​Video is the way.

Not because I want to do it.
I don’t.

But every time I try to sidestep it—reach for something easier, more comfortable, more behind-the-scenes—I land right back at the same truth:
​If I want to grow, I have to be seen.​
And for me, that means video.

Still, I’ve been dragging my feet.
Avoiding. Procrastinating. Getting swept up in false urgency.

I tried telling myself to just get it together.​
Tried pep talks. Productivity hacks.
None of it moved the needle.

This last eclipse portal cracked something open.
I finally stopped trying to outrun the discomfort—
and let myself feel what I’d been avoiding.

The fear. The grief. The resistance that didn’t want to be reasoned with or fixed.

Thank goodness we’re in the thick of creating our Inner Parent Avatars inside Daddy Issues right now.
These are the inner voices we choose to cultivate—wise, nurturing, steady.
The ones who see our whole experience.
Who meet fear with presence, not pressure.
Who remind us we’re safe even when we’re spinning.

When I let that part of me lead—the one I’m learning to trust as my true Inner Parent—
they didn’t try to push me.
They just asked:
​How do you want to feel when your head hits the pillow tonight?

Not in a year.
Not when the algorithm catches on.
​Tonight.

The truth? I’d been swimming in shame, dread, and anxiety about not doing the thing.
My sleep had become restless.
My dreams were tight and frantic.
I’d wake up feeling guilt in my bones.

That question helped me see what had shifted:
The pain of not doing the thing had finally become greater than the fear of doing it.

That’s what made this video possible.

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(It’s a short one. But it hits. Especially if you’ve ever waited to meet a need until you “deserved” it.)

xoxo,
Julie